ENDSPOT

Thoughts welling
Flooding my mind
Heart revolting
Aching inside

Core and wits detached
Ends don’t meet
Could not reconcile
Gap so narrow
Yet to meld
Elusively harsh

Lured to silence
Loneliness dwells
Diversion tempts
Sweetly abide

Seemingly fed
Yet never fades
Whatever’s within
I can never hide
Have to claim it to subside

Declare, claim, accept
Struggle to do
‘cause pain may linger
Hurt may whisper
Muted cries trigger
Heaving and breathless
May not disappear

Stubborn wit
Hardened core
Cast over me
A spell to conceal not restore

I know not
The scope I will encompass
To utter pent-up emotions
Excruciating rupture

Oh, how sweet the pain
Keeping, creeping within
Oh, how desperate it may seem
But in my wont
I am wanting
To burst what’s within
Waiting for that moment
Come to steam

May it be sooner
For I do not know
When can I hold
This upsurge of emotions that lingers
I can no longer cuddle

May it be freeing
Might it be secluding?
Yet in my wanting
I wont

The end I seek…
But hoping and wanting
that the means to this end…
might not be my ending.